Erin Shaffer is reported dead. Her death was so sudden that many are still shocked.
Jaime Nicole sahed a tribute to Erin on Facebook
I am broken today.
I lost my beautiful, sweet, kind hearted little sister to suicide yesterday.
My heart is so shattered, it feels like nothing will ever be the same again.
Deep down, I know that Jesus will carry me through this but right now I feel angry. I trust Him but WHY.
He is the God of peace but I feel the ache of questions and needing a deeper purpose and wanting someone to blame.
I miss her.
I’m angry that I couldn’t save her. Full of shame thinking of all the times she texted me at work and thinking “Should I have known I should leave and come be with her. Why didn’t I tell them I needed to leave and go be with her.”
I told myself she was okay. SHE told me she was okay.
I still feel angry.
Angry that she felt she wasn’t good enough to keep living and just angry and then…. angry turns into sad and then heartbroken and I remember- there’s no one there to be angry at.
All I can do is share her story and ask you to hug your loved ones. Make sure they know you’re there. If they’re struggling, tell them IT IS OKAY TO NOT BE OKAY.
Take the medication.
Get the counseling.
Lean on your friends and family. Prayer alone does not always fix things.
And for the sake of all of our future generations, let’s stop the pressure to feel perfect. Embrace the hurting. Love the flaws. We all have purpose and things to offer, and we all need someone to say, you are loved JUST how you are.
I don’t know if any of that could have made it better for her.
I don’t know the why, or if maybe she hung on as long as she could and just couldn’t fight anymore.
But I do know our last words to each other were:
I’m here for you. I love you. You’re amazing. You’re a beautiful person and mom. Call me later.
And hers to me were:
You are perfect the way you are. I love your sense of humor. Don’t ever change.
And through the tears and the anger and the OH MY GOSH I MISS HER AND IT HURTS, and just WHY — I am so thankful for that.
I love you Erin Shaffer
I know you’re free from pain, and I will see you again someday❤️❤️❤️
This Saturday at 9am, Encounter Church in Quarryville will host a Celebration of Life service for Erin Shaffer (300 Hideaway Drive)
Thank you for helping and supporting our family as we try to cope with this excruciating loss; we feel so blessed by the outpouring of love and prayers.
God is really dependable. As painful as losing Erin is, we are grateful for the time we had with her and feel blessed to have the support of family and friends. He is giving us peace in this storm.
We appreciate your continued prayers as we go through this.
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